I'm annoyed because I miss you and I really hate how much I miss you because there's nothing I can do except wait and wait and wait and how long am I supposed to wait because you know how impatient I am and I love you but I'm not sure if I can wait, but I know that if I have to wait for you, I'll do it because I love you and only you, and nobody else because you're the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with and as cheesy as it sounds, it's true, because honestly I can't imagine myself with anyone else but you and I can't imagine waking up to someone who isn't who or kissing someone goodnight who isn't you or huggling with someone who isn't you or holding hands with someone who isn't you which explains why I've been so lonely and so mad and so sad and so irritable lately, because I just miss you and everything about you and the way you have hairy legs you won't let me shave and the way everytime you take a breath, you turn your head away because you think it's rude to breathe on me, and the way the only time you're hyper is when you need me to pick up the pizza from Domino's and I miss all of that, but most importantly I just miss have you here, with me, within a reachable distance, and not 5000 miles away where we both need 2500 mile long arms in order to just hold each other's hands because I can't do that, and I only have my short stubby arms that you would swing over your shoulders in order to pick me upside down and spin me around and as much as that and our wrestling matches and ice fights made me dizzy and tired, I miss those too, because I miss everything and would do anything to be back to where we were two months ago because now I'm just so sick and tired of waking up everyday to the emptiness and lonliness of not having you here and it sucks so much knowing that I have to wait a whole eight months just to hold you again, and it terrifies me that anything can happen in the course of eight months and I'm just so scared to lose you because if I lose you, then I've lost the future I've already thought about, and I know that's foolish to plan so far ahead and to build up such high expectiations, but it's all because I love you too much and I miss you the way this sentence misses a period.

i've become one of those girls who goes "omg omg omg i love my boyfriend omg."

because it's true. i do love you silly :)

 i've spent the last three hours on tumblr. 


dammit.

Yours is the first face that I saw.
Think I was blind before I met you.
And I don't know where I am, don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go.

we've been watching tv shows together.
played charades.
told me a story.
sing alongs.
learned HSM dance for him.
sleep on camera.

Why, yes. I'm crazy happy.